Ok so I realize that almost all my blogs begin with “It’s been a while since I’ve posted”  I fully admit I am that flaky blogger who posts once every 6 months. I’ve been a semi annual blogger if you will.

In my defense, with the facebook phenom taking over my every being, I’ve been able to do mini mini blogs every day on my wall.   Much fun yet contributing to the demise of my full blown blogging skills.  Which I was barely honing in on to begin with.  But here I am ready to type with so much to say.

My first blog back will be about *gasp* once again my fight with the fat

I just read over some of my older blogs and my pictures I posted of my weight loss.  Wow! I’m so proud of what I did.

I am so sick to say this. I must report that since my operation in september and many other health issues (promise I’m not just making up excuses) I have found the pounds that I worked so hard to lose, attaching themselves ever so diligently to thigh one and thigh two, ok and stomach and of course the butt.  I’m scared that I am becoming once again comfortable with the company of the extra poundage. I am currently at 198! back up from 174!!! GRRRRRR!

As hard as I try to not make excuses, I have allowed myself to do just that.  I cant workout because of the pain.  I eat when I’m depressed. I’m depressed about the pain and the lack of health care I am getting. wait I’m not gaining weight, I’m sure its just water weight. hardee har har.

I must get back on track! If I see the scale hit the 200 mark once again I will spontaneously explode! Or at least find comfort in a half gallon dose of Ben and Jerry’s therapy.  Which I realize would be counterproductive.  But I will be so emotionally distraught that only the assistance of one Cherry Garcia will be able to help me see the happiness in the world once again.  Seriously though, I literally worked my arsh off to lose that weight!   I can’t just let myself go back! Even though I already have :(

SO I once again am allowing my vulnerability by announcing I am back in the battle of the bulge. I, at least at this moment, am getting my butt kicked by the hard hitting bulge.  But watch out! I’m gonna do it once again and even better this time!!

First things first. I think it may be time for me to find a new doc.  One who has a capable front office receptionist. Its very important to have one of those. Because if they dont relay your messages or at least ANSWER THE DANG PHONE whats the point.  4 times out of 5 my calls go to voicemail.  3 times out of those 4 are due to the front desk person being on a personal call! Ok I cant prove that but, almost every time I’m in the waiting room, she is on a personal call and I witness how the other phone calls are mysteriously ending up with the caller having to hear “You have reached….”   Its so frustrating!!!!

Ok so to summarize, time to find a new doc (even though I absolutely adore and respect our current FNP) and time to stop the weight gain and reverse what I have allowed to reoccur to my health and body.

But first, must check facebook! :D

Love, Peace, and Harmony,

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